Monday, April 23, 2018 || 12:20 AM

It just dawned to me that I am actually living. Actually, I just realize how much of life I'm experiencing. You know that point of your life where you stop to look at how far you've come - yeah, I'm doing that right now.

My younger sister keeps asking me questions as she's choosing her polytechnic courses. She has thrown away the choice of going into a Junior College because well, the girl can't even bear another minute in the rigid system. I don't blame her, though I have to admit that my choice of going to a polytechnic has probably got to do with her decision. Through her questions, it just made me realize how much she actually counts on me for this kind of information - the kind of information I didn't know I had answers to. That was when the realization sinks in - I am living.

After years of waiting for my last breathe, I am finally living. I have something to look forward to each day. I look forward to the day I get to see my family again. I look forward to the day I finally get to meet Marcus again. I look forward to the day I get my degree. I look forward to the weekends because Sharifah might come by and take us out on another great adventure around Brisbane.

With this, I'm more conscious of the fact that every mistake, every right doing, everything you do will affect you and your life in one way or another. That's just how life is. It comes and goes. It begins and ends. I just hope that I become a better person from this experience. I just want to live my life to its fullest, within the Divine's rules.

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