Note to self

Saturday, August 19, 2017 || 12:29 PM

I told you, didn't I? I told you not to. I told you so. 

One of the many horrible circumstances in life that you can possibly land yourself in, is to be blessed with the curse of being a pushover. A pushover; I've been told many times that I'm the perfect example, epitome in fact, of a pushover.

In a work setting, being a pushover is inevitable for someone who's just starting out - Asian mindset here, it's like giving the higher ups some form of respect I guess. In a way, it's to satisfy their sadistic needs for superficial power.

But today, I'm not talking about work. I'm talking about personal relationships. It's sad to have someone you really care about, take advantage of your feelings for them. It's disappointing to actually acknowledge that this person you care about, highly likely, does not even know how much they affect you with their actions. It's depressing to know that you actually realise the situation but since you are a pushover, you can't get out of this cycle.

I'll try to keep to these new rules, in every hope that it'll help me get over this dreadful trait.

1. Don't be too nice
2. Learn to say "No"
3. Be more selfish and think of your feelings
4. Hurting someone may inflict some guilt in you, but you have to do it sometimes
5. Don't let your guard down
6. Conceal, don't feel, don't let them (know) in

Note to self: The next time someone reaches their hand out to you when you're falling, be sure to check this hand once, twice or maybe thrice, just because there's a 49.6% chance that he might push you deeper into that hole.

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